I try but everywere I go something is there to remind me of Ale...and well... I know i should try harder but I just don't feel good I mean I had a dream where I went over to see Ale and we went over to go bug Jake but I pulled her away so she'd stop buggin him and thenhe glared at me all of a sudden Cassie Jake Javier and Gabe (i think) rushed me and took ale away then I ran after them and then she was being tied up and they said they were going to sacrifice her to some monster so I chased them and then two guys with their kids were up ahead and I yelled "Help! theyre trying to kill my girl!" they immedietley rushed and tackled gabe and javier then I rushed cassie and jake away from her then the monster appeared and then a bright light flashed and for some reason i'm at my house during the nighttime and i was going to see Ale I guess and another flash came before me and I was holding Ale and she said to me that she'll never leave me againand she kissed me and thats how it all ended..I don't know it was the first dream that involved Ale that was positive...and then recently i dreamed that i was snuggling in bed with her and I was so happy then for some reason I woke up... I don't know Asia...i'm so pathetic...i'm sorry I just wish I could have a second chance to help her cuz I know that those asses make her miserable and they don't give a shit on how much they hurt me....but hey I know my opinion doesn't matter anymore so i'm not going to call Ale anymore...I just hope you help her to make her happy or at least drew hangs with her again........but then again once I think about it all the promises she made me that shed never leeave me nor allow the others to persuade her and that shed have a family with me... sorry Asia, I don't know how much longer it's going to take but i'll try to be happier.............i'll try. I wish I could go back in time.

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Love makes life worth living.